Sunday, February 7, 2010

Some Things.

You know what I'm sick of hearing about? YOU! YOU PEOPLE! Seriously! Take a look at this:

I don't know if its me or the map, but its really, really broken for me. Every 2D object (plants, grass, etc.), texture (bloodstains, tools on the floor, etc) and particle effect (splinters, blood, lights, etc) is shown inside a flat square, and some of the 3D objects are see-through or have weird lighting on them. When I first turned the game on I was in total darkness for a sec, then I could only see a few colored blobs, and when I turned on my flashlight it was either not there or could only show what was there in a pulsating square in the corner of the screen. I was totally lost until I finally turned bloom off, but even then everything was still out of whack.


But anyway I've totally lost all steam working on Protone. Why? Because constructs are just totally unnecessary. I'm sorry, but the moment I started making the first building in what was going to be a masterpiece of city building I just said "Nope, not gonna do it.".

But wait! Before you start crying (I'm looking at you Fereles) I want you to know this was all part of my plan! I had a vision of how I would make Protone: It would be a casual, yet, hands-on approach. An experiment if you will. Protone would in essence (And women are always after my essence!) never be finished.

But I know what some of you are thinking (I'm looking at you Ou812, you sick, dirty hippie. God, I hate you.) Isn't the problem here that I don't want to work on Paranoia at all? Not necessarily. You see, Protone is different from Paranoia. The severe lack of checkerboard tiles immediately springs to mind but the difference is more then that.

When I was making Paranoia it was because I felt an obligation. I would stay up two hours past my bedtime every night to work on it. The only thing pushing me forward despite every fiber in my body telling me that it wasn't worth it was DVNO by Justice played on repeat.

If I could sidetrack for a second: DVNO is in my opinion the best song ever. Really. If I ever get a tattoo it will be DVNO, four capital letters printed in gold, on my knuckes so that every time I punch someone it will be always the same, always ashamed story telling.

But yeah, thanks to the good people that have uploaded virtually every music video ever on to Youtube I was able to bite the bullet and pull through with Paranoia to the very end.

Why? Because Paranoia is art and I can say that without any kind of the snobbish pretentiousness I so avoid in the real world (Again, I'm looking at you Ou812, you filthy hedonist.)

Protone is different. No one really wants this map (Except Chaomaster, or SEABEAR!, or Dashrush. I can't even keep track of the names he uses any more.). But that's ok! It gives me the freedom to put whatever I well please in Protone. If I want a bottemless pit then by God I will have one! Giant skyscraper? Boom it's done. And no one can tell me otherwise because it's mine! ALL MINE. I want to finish this, but not in the same way I want vortigaunts sweeping up things in an intergalactic sewer surrounded by the mad alterations of Franz Kafka and M.C. Escher.


Yadda said...

Music is definitely the ultimate pick-me-up for even the most banal of tasks.

However, I find DVNO a very annoying tune, it gets in my head too often and I find myself humming the chorus; and for that, I despise it.

What does work for me is MGMT - Kids, which I recommend you listen to it, if it suits your taste in music that is.

Shadgrimgrvy said...

I'm hearing it just now and I must say it's a very good song.

Jackie said...

"I want to finish this, but not in the same way I want vortigaunts sweeping up things in an intergalactic sewer surrounded by the mad alterations of Franz Kafka and M.C. Escher." Seriously can you get any more awesome

Shadgrimgrvy said...

We can only hope so!

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